How to remember a traumatic event from childhood. Why do we not remember ourselves in early childhood? Why don't we remember our birth
The frontal lobes of the cerebral cortex responsible for memory mature by the age of two: from this age we can remember everything that happened to us. Why doesn't this happen?
Why do we rarely remember our early childhood? Photo: Lori.ru.
At the same time, in childhood, we form relationships with our parents. Relationships with them will then determine our ability to create contact with other people. Connection with the most significant images in life is a certain matrix of our perception of the world and others.
And if we don’t remember a lot of things about our childhood, this is often evidence that helpful memory has erased some of the difficult memories.
An illustration of this is the following dream:
“Recently, I ordered a dream that would clarify what happened in my childhood that still influences my life. And I had a dream where the main characters are souls. I can’t say what they look like, but it feels like souls. I'm flying next to the elder soul. Very dear to me. She is God to me. I have unlimited confidence in her. And suddenly, physically in a dream, as if in reality, I begin to feel suffocation in my throat. I mean, she's choking me. And laughs. I can not do anything. All I have is helplessness, amazement, weakness, and a feeling of pity and worthlessness. And the most vivid feeling is wild fear. Then I almost woke up and, half asleep or awake, continued my dream by coming to life - either they didn’t strangle me, or this soul suddenly needed me at the last moment. I kept flying next to her after a while because I didn't remember anything. I didn't remember being suffocated. There was only an incomprehensible feeling of own uselessness, inferiority, helplessness. Another intuitive distrust of others. I began to fly a little further from this soul, but with the same love.
The dream indicates that there is some kind of absolute, an authoritative soul next to our dreamer. And this soul, instead of love and support, turns into a threat to life for the dreamer. Such dreams are often dreamed of by those who were brought up and punished physically. The child is trapped. Normal behavior in the event of a beating would be to run away or fight back. But since the offender is an adult whom he loves and needs him, the child has to consider possible punishment. He turns into anxious, suspicious, suspicious, incredulous.
Although many parents raise their children with spanks and blows, but no one attaches importance to this. In fact, this is one of the most common and fatal parenting mistakes. Thus, they instill the idea in the child that his body is not valuable, that it can be destroyed and invaded according to his mood. Growing up, such children do not know how to defend themselves in front of others, especially in front of authorities.
Apparently, our dreamer's dream reflects in an enhanced form what she probably experienced in relations with her favorite authorities - a threat that she remembered more unconsciously than consciously.
And only through a dream does she have the opportunity to get in touch with the distance and fear that are always present in relationships.
Maria Dyachkova, psychologist, family therapist and training leader personal growth Training Center Marik Khazin
Many people say that they would like to return to their childhood years - warm, cozy, carefree, with young (and alive) mothers and fathers, grandparents ... For all their tenderness for memories, these very memories are very few, fragmentary. Why does a person not remember childhood (meaning early)? After all, this time is so dear to us! ..
The memory of a small child is like an ocean. Gentle waves lull and optimistic for the rest of our lives, but the trace of each storm - although the storm eventually ends and the mirror of water is smoothed out - remains in us forever ... Maybe this is the answer to the question why people forget what happened to them in childhood?
Every person around the age of 7 loses all of their earliest memories. Why can almost every one of us say about himself: “I don’t remember anything from my childhood”? Unknown. Neurologists and psychiatrists cannot yet explain this phenomenon, called "childhood amnesia" and can only make assumptions.
We forget, but our brains don't
Everyone agrees that it is in the first years of life that the character, the ability to learn and the perception of the world of a person are formed. Some even compare the human brain during this period with a mirror that reflects (but also remembers due to the development of certain neural networks) the emotions that “get” to us at this time.
A child loved and accepted by the family will be self-confident, creative and friendly towards the world of adults. And the unloved one? Offended? Overlooked, practically abandoned to the mercy of fate? Instead of focusing on understanding the world and self-development in the future, he will focus on repelling threats and preparing for defense. Such a child will later try to compensate for the feeling of anxiety and uncertainty by adopting a model of risky sexual behavior, bad habits, fits of anger, and overeating.
Moreover, many people who, as children, experienced strong grievances, look for sources of a sense of self-worth, dignity, not in themselves, but “outside” - in acceptance by others. Therefore, they are doomed to the eternal pursuit of praise and words of recognition, they live, forced to constantly do something, prove, receive regular awards. At the same time, they remain ruthless in assessing themselves, do not spare punishments and humiliations for themselves.
Why can't I remember my childhood?
Until the fourth year of life, our personality is formed, and hence the way of functioning in society, psychologists explain. Many of the skills acquired at this time are so deeply rooted in us that they are no longer subject to the further process of education. The same applies, unfortunately, to the traumas experienced during this period. They also constantly shape our adult behaviors, preferences, and fears.
But why then does it happen that a person remembers almost nothing from early childhood (at the level of consciousness)? It is strange that we lose such an important (if not the most important) stage of our life.
Childhood amnesia extends for a period up to about 3 years. According to scientists, this may be due to the development of the brain, and specifically the hippocampus, which is the "home" for human memory. Old memories must give way to new ones. And so we forget. We cannot go back to the moment when father took us in his arms for the first time, or when we consciously saw mother's smile for the first time... Memories perish, although we were shaped earlier. Not all, however, disappear without a trace...
Neurologists know the concept of the stress axis. It turns out that traumatic, strong emotional experiences from childhood cause permanent changes in the brain. The axis runs from the hypothalamus through the pituitary gland to the adrenal glands responsible for releasing stress hormones and is responsible for our response to stress. If she is disturbed by strong negative emotions in the first months and years of childhood, then all our life we will react to such stimuli painfully sharply.
Perhaps nature simply protects our psyche, making it so that a person does not remember his childhood, “turning on” childhood amnesia and “turning off” memories of the first years of his stay in this world. Makes sure that possible psychological trauma does not cripple our future life. Perhaps we should not be offended by her, lamenting why I don’t remember my childhood, but thanking her for her forethought.
Despite the fact that the memory of the events of the first years of life has already left our consciousness, nevertheless, the echo of experienced emotions sometimes returns - in light fragments of vague memories or dreams. This means that childhood still has not gone away, it has remained with us forever, we just don’t remember it. Maybe for many of us it's for the best...
We remember our childhood very selectively. We have forgotten a lot. Why? Scientists seem to have found an explanation for this phenomenon.
According to Freud
Sigmund Freud drew attention to children's forgetfulness. In his 1905 work Three Essays on the Theory of Sexuality, he reflected in particular on amnesia, which covers the first five years of a child's life. Freud was sure that childhood (infantile) amnesia is not a consequence of functional memory disorders, but stems from the desire to prevent early experiences from entering the child's mind - traumas that harm one's own "I". The father of psychoanalysis considered such traumas to be experiences associated with the knowledge of one's own body or based on sensory impressions from what one heard or saw. Fragments of memories that can still be observed in the child's mind, Freud called masking.
"Activation"
The results of a study by Emory University scientists Patricia Bayer and Marina Larkina, published in the journal Memory, support the theory about the time of birth of childhood amnesia. According to scientists, its "activation" occurs in all, without exception, the inhabitants of the planet at the age of seven. The scientists conducted a series of experiments in which three-year-old children were asked to tell their parents about the most vivid impressions. Years later, the researchers returned to the tests: they invited the same children again and asked them to recall what they had been told. Five-seven-year-old participants in the experiment were able to recall 60% of what was happening to them at the age of three years, while eight-ten-year-olds - no more than 40%. Thus, scientists were able to put forward a hypothesis that childhood amnesia occurs at the age of 7 years.
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Canadian psychology professor Carol Peterson believes that, among other factors, the formation of childhood memories is influenced by the environment. He was able to confirm his hypothesis as a result of a large-scale experiment, in which Canadian and Chinese children became participants. They were asked to recall the most vivid memories of the first years of life in four minutes. Twice as many events came to life in the memory of Canadian children as in the memory of Chinese children. It is also interesting that Canadians predominantly recalled personal stories, while the Chinese shared memories in which their family or peer group was an accomplice.
Guilty without guilt?
Specialists of the medical center at the state research university Ohio states believe that children cannot reconcile their memories with a specific place and time, so at a later age it becomes impossible to restore episodes from their own childhood. Discovering the world for himself, the child does not make it difficult to link what is happening to temporal or spatial criteria. According to one of the co-authors of the study, Simon Dennis, children do not feel the need to remember events along with "overlapping circumstances." A child may remember a merry clown at the circus, but is unlikely to say that the show started at 5:30 pm.
For a long time it was also believed that the reason for forgetting the memories of the first three years of life lies in the inability to associate them with specific words. The child cannot describe what happened due to the lack of speech skills, so his mind blocks "unnecessary" information. In 2002, a study on the relationship between language and childhood memory was published in the journal Psychological Science. Its authors Gabriel Simcock and Harleen Hein conducted a series of experiments in which they tried to prove that children who have not yet learned to speak are not able to "code" what is happening to them into memories.
Memory erasing cells
Canadian scientist Paul Frankland, who is actively studying the phenomenon of childhood amnesia, disagrees with his colleagues. He believes that the formation of childhood memories occurs in the zone of short-term memory. He insists that young children can remember their childhood, colorfully talk about ongoing events, in which they were recently involved. However, these memories fade over time. A group of scientists led by Frankland suggested that the loss of infant memories may be due to active process the formation of new cells, which is called neurogenesis. According to Paul Frankland, it was previously believed that the formation of neurons leads to the formation of new memories, but latest research proved that neurogenesis is able to simultaneously erase information about the past. Why, then, do people not remember most often the first three years of life? The reason is that the most active period of neurogenesis falls on this time. The neurons then start reproducing at a slower rate and leave some of the childhood memories intact.
Experienced
To test their assumptions, Canadian scientists conducted an experiment on rodents. Mice were placed in a cage with a flooring, on which weak electrical discharges were fired. A repeated visit to the cage led adult mice to panic even after a month. But young rodents willingly visited the cage the very next day. Scientists have also been able to understand how neurogenesis affects memory. To do this, they artificially caused the acceleration of neurogenesis in the experimental subjects - the mice quickly forgot about the pain that arose when visiting the cage. According to Paul Frankland, neurogenesis is more of a blessing than a bad thing, because it helps protect the brain from an overabundance of information.
“My brother is happy to talk about how we built huts in the country, recalls our disputes, and quarrels, and how, secretly from our parents, we fed a stray dog ... I don’t have any memories,” 34-year-old Elizabeth is surprised .
Psychophysiologist Yuri Grinchenko recalls that the brain records everything that happens to us: "This information continues to be stored and does not disappear anywhere." What are the reasons for such amnesia?
hurting experiences
“The inability to remember, as a rule, is not associated with memory loss, but with an unconscious desire to forget the past,” explains child psychoanalytic psychologist Natalia Zueva. - Forgetfulness protects against moments of shame or humiliation experienced in childhood, feelings of grief or acute loneliness. It also protects from pleasant sensations that are prohibited.
In this way, for example, the sexual arousal experienced while playing with a brother or sister can be “forgotten” - and with it the game itself, and the whole day, and sometimes a more significant period of time, goes into darkness. If such a memory comes up, it will lead to hurtful experiences in the present.
Conscious refusal
The refusal to remember can be quite conscious if a person, for one reason or another, wants to cross out a certain period from life.
“Until the seventh grade, I was a real outsider,” recalls 30-year-old Yulia. - Then we moved, and in new school where no one knew me, I firmly decided that I would not allow anyone else to mistreat me. I erased the previous seven years of my life from memory and started all over again.
Reclaiming our memories, we restore our integrity
As psychoanalyst Virginie Meggle explains, “Those who avoid their memories are not ready to recognize in themselves the child they once were and who still lives in them. They are afraid that, having allowed the past to come to life, they will find there instead of themselves a different, unpleasant creature. It's really just a scared child who needs love."
The power of family rules
Another reason for "forgetfulness" is the rules of conduct adopted in the family.
“When there are secrets and secrets in the house, the child learns, by watching the elders, not to ask questions about the past, which means not to have a memory,” says Natalia Zueva. “He involuntarily obeys these rules of communication and applies them (intentionally or out of habit) to his own past.” For example, information about relatives who have ended up in prison, about previous marriages of parents, illegitimate children or illnesses can fall into the zone of silence ...
However, “each of us is the story of our life,” emphasizes Natalia Zueva. “And if we delete something from it, then we live only a part of ourselves and cannot perceive the world in its entirety.” By regaining our memories, we restore our integrity.
What to do?
Be more attentive to your emotions
“An event or experience in the past can cause such severe pain that you involuntarily try not to remember it,” says Natalia Zueva. - Try to find the boundaries of the forgotten. Ask yourself what is causing strong feelings? These emotions may be related to the current situation, or maybe they have already met in the past. When, why? The goal is to gradually trace the origin of negative emotions back to childhood.”
Return to places of childhood
“Relive memories with the help of associations,” Yuri Grinchenko suggests. “They can be caused by objects preserved from childhood, toys or books ... If you succeed, visit the places where you grew up.” Watch the kids. At the sight of a little girl crying on a snowy hill while others ride down it, does your heart clench? The meaning of this experience will be revealed to you if you look into your own childhood.
Share feelings and listen to others
Listening to others' stories about their childhood and being sensitive to your own feelings that arise during these stories, advises Virginie Meggle. Often it is enough to start an exchange of cases from life, and something is remembered. She recommends moderate reliance on family sources: "This is not an objective account of events, they can be interpreted and explained at their discretion."
But even such a subjective presentation helps us fill in the gaps in our history, Natalia Zueva believes. Especially if we manage to ask ourselves questions or compare different versions. Gradually expanding the past, we begin to accept ourselves more.
Personal experience
Elena, 29 years old, referent-translator
“I never liked to remember my childhood. In memory, it looked somehow gloomy: the evil educators in kindergarten, a school child, a tired mother - besides, she was often sick, and she had almost no strength left for me. But one day I thought: this can not be! If my past was so hopelessly black, I simply would not be able to grow up. a normal person… And I forced myself to remember.
At first it was very difficult and unpleasant. But other pictures gradually arose: how I was in the theater for the first time, how my mother and I went to the sea ... I never found out why these images did not come to me for so long, but I can say with confidence: it became much easier for me to live since I managed to restore something from my childhood in my memory.
As you noticed, I started to touch on the topic of rebirths and past incarnations on the site. Although on this topic "institutions do not finish", but write to me about this easily. I know this from somewhere ... When I first encountered this topic, I practically had no one to ask what diving into past lives, and with what it is eaten. Now many dives are carried out remotely, thanks to the Internet. I have several guides that I trust. And for the uninitiated, it is important to understand all risks diving without safety equipment.
What can be expected from this technique? It is believed to help and get rid of the deepest emotional traumas . I myself was very interesting to get new experience. "Catching up" so far, and perhaps later I would write about it differently. And now the impressions are still fresh.
This page will be of interest only to those who are interested in the topic of regressions to past states. From my own experience, I will conduct in detail and show that it is not difficult, not scary and accessible to anyone :).
Waborder memories
It was a pre-incarnation course "Total Recall", designed to "practice" on current life. To learn then to trust your feelings in "campaigns to the beyond." I read other reviews and realized that not everyone succeeds. Turn off high self-control interferes" gatehouse» mistrust. It is important to be able or willing to trust and follow the voice.
When I read the stories of participants from this course who got the result, of course, it all seemed very implausible. "Well, what nonsense!" I thought of them as people with a wildly developed fantasy. Therefore, I conducted my own conscious experiment with interest to make sure for myself that trips "there" are not hallucinations.
age regression
It turned out to be a pleasant surprise. I used to think that it was very difficult, but it turned out that everything is much simpler, a very easy hypnotic trance. I thought it was scary, but it turned out to be the opposite. ten sessions in a row, accompanied by the head of the center, I looked through my childhood, pulling out of my memory all deeply forgotten moments, which at first it was unrealistic to remember. By the end of the 10th lesson, childhood early memories did not end, but, on the contrary, became more bright. And the most important thing is that this “forgotten”, read, repressed, confirmed in cross-examinations of my loved ones.
Trance state phenomena
Now I have very vivid dreams, and I remember them - it's amazing. Memory began to work much better. This is one of the first side effects. This memory activation- a huge plus, especially when you consider that I do not rely on memory and do not part with a notebook. Apparently, the consequences of anesthesia of a 20-year operation are affecting. Since then, friends remind me of some events school period but I have them I do not remember.
Beyond the line that remembers the mind, but never forgets the subconscious
Lesson 1 What are the personal channels of perception?
From the course leader's instructions: "Today you will learn why it is useful to travel to past states, see how much you can remember a common person, and realize how it can be useful for everyone.
Since I'm a rather pumped-up comrade, it was easy for me to imagine the object. The setup skill was built in just a couple of minutes.
At this stage, most students fall asleep, as I looked at the report tape. For many, this is such a simple task that most “flies” right away. Well, right, why do nonsense? But something told me there was more to come.
From homework.
6 Do you have a good memory? How does it work? - I think my memory is weak, I remember more through sensations.
7 Have you paid attention to how you remember events, how you analyze them?- I often remember events “through the fourth dimension” (who knows).
8 Do you have experience of meditative states?- Meditative experience - yes, with only one master I trust.
9 Do you trust your intuition?- I trust my intuition, I live by it.
10 Have you experienced unusual states of consciousness?- There were many unusual states of consciousness, yes.
Lesson 2
It looks like the real adventure has begun. I was taught a completely new sensation - to be "in my body" or "to be out of my body, on the side or on top."
I have never tried switching and adjusting states like this before, until this lesson. A very interesting state, I went into a trance a lot, then I “led” a little more. I remembered one situation from my childhood, which I forgot about (or maybe I forced it out so that I would never remember it). There was a very vivid memory, literally "like yesterday."
Lesson 3. Increasing the number of viewing levels.
Here I am at last personal experience I felt what a real expansion of consciousness is! But I was promised that I would return safely to my original state with the joy of having a new experience.
From homework.
1 Did you manage to switch your attention from the state “in the body” to the state “out of the body”? - It was easy.
2 In your opinion, in what cases is it advisable to view events while being “in the body”, and in what cases “out of the body”? - The state "in the body" is more appropriate for looking at the details, diving into the details. And "outside the body" - for awareness of routes and more global awareness.
3 Have you been able to increase the number of versions of yourself? - Increase from 2nd to 3rd - the exercise was not given. I stopped the recording several times to “enter” the state.
4 Did you manage to get out of the “out of body” state into the next state? - Resistance. There were thoughts that such games with the psyche are dangerous. It's just a pattern break.
5 How much of Yourself have you got? (from 10 to infinity) - It was already easy and funny to jump into the fourth Self:) the fourth feeling of Myself - some kind of super-wisdom. In total I tried in 5-6 of my versions, it didn’t work anymore. The conclusion is this. The first version is the simplest projection. The second - as an overseer over it, as a curator, or something. After 6, the connection with the first version was already lost, this is a super-level, a global generic one, or something.
What was useful: Understanding that the first version of the Self is still a rough physical body, even if it is the most fragile, gentle, defenseless child. And, of course, a very unusual experience, but in the end I liked it.
Lesson 4. I am a first grader. Travel back to your childhood and practice on specific events.
During the session, I was promised to remember what I had long forgotten :) Well, well :)
From homework.
1 Do you remember how your first day at school was? Yes, I remember the first day! Suddenly I remembered, yes, it was like that - I was enrolled in one class, and transferred to another. And I remembered the vanity of the moment of transition, as my mother changed my teacher.
2 What events happened a month, a few months after this memory? - H A month later, I remembered a cozy bright warm class, a good atmosphere. Then I remembered the gloomy winter time. Then New Year's Eve! Then spring, and how we line up for a common class photo!
3 Look at events up to the moment you first went to school. What did you think about school? Did you want to go to school? - Before school, I remembered the summer, and how I was taught letters and letters. I remembered the yard and the swings. Previously - graduation in kindergarten. Even earlier - a winter matinee. Even earlier - my favorite teacher near the autumn rowan tree.
4 With whom did you play and what games?- Played with friends in the old yard. I remembered (dear mother, wow!) how I was taught at the age of 6 to smoke in a hut by children (I am the first and last time in life held a cigarette :)). I remembered the ice rink (I was on skates for the first and last time :)). I remembered the Easter cakes in the sandbox, how I played hostess.
6 What did you find the most interesting of these memories?- I immediately received pictures that I had long and deeply forgotten about. And I didn't remember their order. But in these 6-7 minutes they lined up in chronological order.
What was useful: I was "in the body", so it was brighter for me to remember. I remember my childhood in an average way, more in fragments. Frankly, I did not count on the success of this exercise. But I really liked the fact that I managed to restore the feeling of "presence" up to the smells. I guess I'm a capable student :) I'm looking forward to the next lesson.
Lesson 5. Early childhood.
The topics of the lessons are not announced in advance, and I don’t know what lies ahead :) Probably, this is such a style that they don’t know what to tune in to. Well, finally I came to the long-awaited trip to my early childhood! I remembered the forgotten streets of the Soviet era, and even what kind of music was playing.
Now you will take a trip to earlier childhood, learn how to expand your memories, understand how you can move through memories. You will also compare the difference in perception at different ages. And learn to travel from an early memory to the events of today.
Interesting? Ooooo! I was in anticipation ... I had no idea until now that there would be a surprise effect. It will be, of course, tin ... And that I will sob a lot ... from what I saw ..
1 Where did you live and who were your friends with as a child?- I remembered mostly what I remembered. She also remembered something that she had long forgotten. Lived in a small old yard...
2 What did you like to play at that age, did you have any favorite toys? I don't remember any toys. The period of about 3-4 years completely fell out of my memory. Then I remembered a few episodes.
3 What did you like or dislike to eat? - As for taste preferences, I don’t remember at all. I was not a food capricious, so I didn’t get delayed by food.
5 What is your earliest memory?- I remembered a lot in previous studies that are not related to this lesson (I was about 3 months old, I clearly described that situation to my mother, everything coincided). Now a very exotic memory came to mind. I’m a couple of years old, I’m in a pub, looking up at the huge tabletop, and dad and uncles are drinking above me ...
What was useful: This lesson brought me to non-resource. I cried. My tears flowed down. Situations were recalled that memory had ousted from active memories.
Lesson 6Ride back and forth from memory.
From the course leader's instructions: Today you will learn how to manage your memories. Learn to move through hard-to-reach areas of memory, determine the optimal pace of movement for yourself. You will understand what stops you and does not prevent you from moving.
From homework.
1 Were you able to manage the sequence of your memories?- Yes, "neighboring" events are easily decomposed.
2 Was it easy or did you encounter some difficulties?- Difficulties only from lack of experience. As soon as you understand this “chip”, additional “options” immediately come.
3 Do you have any advice for those who didn't do as well as you did?- Relax and not cycle on a stopped picture. Jump over to another. And, as you said, jokingly ask the Universe to show you more. And further. And further. Fuck, in short, the Universe, and it will finally show :)
What was useful: Such realizations! On the one hand, I remembered that I knew, but on the other hand, I did not remember it for 20-30 years. And such awareness. I remember not only smiles, tone of pronunciation, weather and seasons, but even fragments of phrases. When it seemed to adults, children do not understand anything at all, and you can say anything in front of them. And the children all whip and notice. And then it fits into the subconscious. Very tired, a lot of stress. But at the same time, a feeling of delight and a completely different understanding of the world.
Lesson 7. Experiments with your real photos.
This is one of the most crazy things that have happened to me. " Dive" into yourself through your eyes in the photo- that still tin ... And it's also awesome sensations ...
From the course leader's instructions: Today you will consider certain, specific points. You will also master the freeze-frame technique, learn how to penetrate the other side of the picture. Get ready - you will be 'penetrating the body' again. Strengthen the skill of competent movement.
From homework.
1 Think back to your earliest childhood photos. Use them as doors to your memories. - I looked at 3 photos at the session and about 3-4 after. Everything turned out, except for the earliest, at 3 months.
2 Transfer yourself from one side of the photo to the other, enter the body. - The transfer exercise is easy to do. It feels like the skill has already been trained.
3 Any memory can be "launched" like a movie, let it go ahead and show the plot. - “Start” is only possible by the “driving” exercise, slipping. Memory is not given to the maximum yet.
4 Do this with every photo you can remember. - Done with each photo, offset!
5 You might have imagined that you could look into such early age? - It seemed to me that I remember fragments of phrases, the season, warm-cold at that moment and similar sensations.
6 What emotions did you feel at the same time? - Emotions of joy from the fact that I already know how :).
What was useful. I deepen and train a useful skill. I think I can do it))
Lesson 8
Wow .. We got ... It seemed incredible and certainly hallucinogenic! Well, this can only be imagined or conjectured! How pleasantly wrong I was... Of course, when I thought about what events happened around me when I was just born, my mind worked more than memories. The mind interfered with sensations, built its hypotheses, what were the hospitals of that time, 40 years ago. It was difficult to remember your stroller and crib ...
From the course leader's instructions: We are close to the result. You will learn to feel yourself in the womb, remember the forgotten feelings. You will get a unique experience and compare with how it happens with others.
From homework.
1 What fragments did you manage to watch before your earliest memory? - Practice, practice, and each time the layer of thickness of time becomes more pliable .. I manage to remember a little, I hope this is not a figment of fantasy.
4 How did you get to know your mother? How did you feel it? How did you feel about your mother at the first moment of your birth? - There were big problems with recognizing my mother. It is easier for me to remember my father, relatives and even tutors. But there are no feelings from my mother at all, so that she would ever hug me. At the first moment, it is impossible to restore the sensations, but I knew that everyone was glad to see me. She really wanted me.
6 Do you remember yourself “in the house”? How did you and your mother feel? different terms his stay "in the house"? - Remembering yourself in the house, you can talk about the sensations that came in a trance of memories. The sensations were - cozy, calm, comfortable, safe, quiet. This is strange, because they kept me for all 9 months, I think the drugs were injected into me immeasurably. Therefore, the knowledge of the real and the sensations of a hypnotic trance are different.
What was useful: “Oh this brain! She analyzed again)) ”I tried to separate the forced fantasies from the memory of the body, learn to manage my state and trust my body and its signals more. And the body really trusts your voice :), so I consider the experience favorable, despite the failures in information (my relatives told me little) and mind games.
Lesson 9
The guide's instruction was even more amazing: "Go through the veil of secrecy, be even more surprised. Walk along the tape of memories and again want to understand what life is."
I understood that with the result of this exercise it was already possible to clearly understand whether it was dreamed or not dreamed. Because there were some "inconsistencies" ...
From homework.
1 Did you want to be born? Yes, I wanted to be born.
2 How did you feel at the moment of birth? How did you feel mom at that moment? Who was around you? - The moment of childbirth appeared to me in the twilight, in a light fog ... Doctors scurried about, the atmosphere of some inevitable transition and the triumph of life. This vision was different from how I myself gave birth in the hospital. According to my real birth, the sensations of trance - I don’t think that they are real: I was born in a pathological childbirth, in asphyxia, which, however, was hidden. I felt the atmosphere of the postpartum ward, the calmness and joy of the environment.
5 What events do you remember after that day? What long-forgotten memory do you remember? - According to your voice, I “went” to recall subsequent events, and small details surfaced, long forgotten. It was unexpected and unusual... I went through my childhood, adolescence, formation and up to the present day. I had just enough time just before the end of the recording!
6 Tell us about your thoughts and feelings when you enjoyed the wonderful moments in your life. - I am very grateful to you for this opportunity! What a great work you are doing! Of course, I enjoyed my life, overestimated it once again. Have I lived so long! And how much I saw in my life and remembered!
What was useful: I noticed that I give feedback no longer images, but sensations, a certain atmosphere. And I flexibly maneuvered the acquired skills. 3 days ago I was afraid to "jump" out of the body, now it's easy, funny and reliable :)
I also want to wish the rest of the participants and beginners successful experiments. With training, all this works out, even if you are as shy and skeptical as I am :)
Outside the report, or What was not included in the homework
In general, I “remembered” about 30 deeply forgotten situations and details lost in the depths of neural webs. Some are funny. Some even with detailed childish/non-childish thoughts at that moment. It's incredible.
I walked for several days under the impression ... Then I decided to ask my mother about long-standing events and "check" with the real circumstances. Most of all, I was afraid to ask a question about the night she gave birth to me. My own daughter's birth night took place in a large hall, there were about 7 staff members near me, and I remember a lot of lamps and light. Yes, and this process on TV programs is perceived a little differently.
But here your birth I saw very strange. Something suspicious for a place like a maternity hospital. Why such a very small room, and very dark? There are no people at all, and somehow quiet. Then I saw a couple of scurrying shadows - people appeared in a dark room ... Then - other small details ... What kind of secret of birth did I have? ..
You know, sometimes it's good to talk to your parents. This birthday night never discussed with me before. Now my mother answered my question that it was late at night, and it was true that it was very dark in the ward ... She could not get through to doctors - and so she gave birth to me in bed ... Then two nurses finally came to her and moved us ... In general, she confirmed all my details...
She is wonder how i know that.. And I had this transforming state. I got this feeling, how she, this poor frightened 18-year-old child, all alone, found herself in such a situation when there was no one around. It's like I've been in her moccasins for two moons. How much my mother went through .. And for half my life I made claims against her ....
There were many amazing moments of childhood memories that are simply unthinkable to grasp the mind. I even remembered what my mother herself didn’t remember, and I had to remind her! :)
And I also “went into my own fear” - although I was afraid to see the traumatic experiences of childhood. My heart fluttered as one repressed memory activated. For several years in a row, from 7 to 12 years old (!!!), I overcame a half-hour journey home from school. I remembered the feeling of global loneliness and hopelessness. I really didn't like walking that road.
What we do not want to remember from the past, memory represses - this is a very wise mechanism. Why remember the things of bygone days, you ask? Everyone has their own opinion on this. I think that it is possible to make some kind of reassessment of one’s long period of life, remove grievances (if they still remain), re-realize childhood fears and find resources in them ...
In his memory "out of the body" I saw myself flying over myself, stomping along a deserted street - I saw that I was afraid in vain, the Guardians were always with me. Maybe I am my own Angel?... And looked after Myself from above?..
I saw the safety of all my school way home from above. From that height there was a transformation and re-awareness of experience.
Nobody would hurt me. So what was I afraid of? Do not be afraid. And we are often afraid "in advance", in reserve.
A lot of things .. In addition to such a “supposedly unresourceful” reminiscence, you can also plunge headlong into the serenity and carelessness of childhood. If something comes that you already know, say: Universe, no, show me something else! and then plunge into such depths of the unconscious that we never dreamed of ...
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